You Can Overcome Domestic Violence and Bullying
By Daniela Atamoros Garcia via UN Volunteers
Fear?
Only the silence. Since I can remember my house had always been a violent
place. I grew up listening to the insults and shouts of my father. I saw my
mother being beaten and crying almost all the time.
My childhood is full of
memories of a dysfunctional family. There was nothing else in this world I
hated most than seeing my mother sad. I always did everything to please her,
for mom had the lowest self-esteem and believed she did not deserve a life
without violence.
So during all these years, despite my young
age, I decided to show her my strength.
I wanted her to understand that women are more than the typical
stereotype of getting married, having children and, "meeting a man."
I focused completely on my studies, but never neglected my soul nor my heart.
Despite the bad moral example that my father gave me, I decided not to be like
him. And that decision was the most important because rather than repeating a
pattern, I learned precisely what I did not want to be and what I did not want
in my life. I was an extremely shy loner who suffered bullying.
I was insulted and beaten in the school
bathroom just because I was not out to parties, or did not have any addiction
and for having the best grades in high school. My sin was not to do what most
kids at my age do. My life at home and at school was a real hell.
One
day when I returned from school I found out my father had hit my mom so hard on
the head that she was in the hospital. My despair drove me to get away from
home and denounce my father for domestic violence but that only worsened things
more. Government authorities in Mexico are very inefficient so it is a country
with high rates of femicides and domestic violence.
They did not want to
believe me because of the simple fact of being a woman and being lying. They
argue I should be home taking care of my father and accept his behaviour. They
said he acted that way because my mom and I probably deserved it. I never
received support from the authorities.
I
was very depressed and did not know what to do. My depression was so severe
that I almost committed suicide; I tried to suffocate myself. When I almost did
it, I stopped. I remembered my mother
and how she would suffer if something happened to me. I felt the most cowardly
and selfish girl. I had 2 options: giving my idiot father and all those who
bothered me at school the power over my life, or being smart, loving me enough
to value my own life. I chose the
second.
I showed my mom what she always wanted to see
in me: a woman who can move forward
regardless any situation. I focused on
healing myself before attempting to heal my mother. I learned about emotional
intelligence and breathing techniques. I
started reading a lot, I got involved in deeper issues such as education,
economy, politics, etc.
I learnt how to set short mid and long term goals. I also realised that there were things I had
to focus on, other in which I had to put more effort and there were some other
things that I had to stop doing since they were obstacles for my plans. I Changed
school and I made new friends. I kept trying hard in school. I changed the way
I saw things so my inner being became more important than banal things from the
outside.
I began to worry about the world in which
animals lived, global warming, war, discrimination, lack of education,
inequality, etc. I understood that if I change, the world changes. Although it
was difficult because in my home and my school was still the same hell, I
survived because the fire inside me burned brighter than the fire around me.
With this internal change that I did have it was easier to control my emotions
and thus to help my mom when she was in crisis.
I started to talk a lot with her about various subjects, we exercised
together and I told her every day how beautiful and valuable she was. I was
super affectionate to her so she felt the most beloved woman in the universe.
She began to be different, she became stronger and I had never seen her like
that. She got the courage to separate from my dad even though the law never
paid us any attention for a legal separation.
It is impressive the corruption
that exists in my country when talking about human rights. These situations
forged my decision to get more involved in the laws of my country and its
politics. Since I could not imagine that there are more children with the same
or worse problem than mine and they are ignored and discriminated like me. For
this and more I decided to study law.
Although
things were much quieter without my father, my mother still had the sequels of
years of violence so I continued working with her, getting well informed about
how we can fight for our rights under the law.
There is no doubt that knowledge is power. My parent’s divorce was a
very difficult process but together we are facing the demons of our past and
overcoming our problems.
I
was still having trouble inside me, I felt a lot of anger for all the
injustices we had suffered. So I decided to redirect that anger into something
positive for me. Again, it was time to be reborn like a phoenix.
I started
playing the violin and painting, all my troubles went away thanks to music and
my brush. I remained being an excellent student I finished school with honors
and entered the best university in the state to study what I love. I got
involved in debates and conferences to discuss the reality of domestic
violence.
And now I love getting involved in volunteer
and other causes that enrich me as a person. I therefore invite all women who
have suffered some kind of violence, injustice, discrimination: do not give up
and fight for what you love! Believe in yourselves as capable of accomplishing
anything you want.
Regardless of your condition, problem, age, nationality,
cultivate yourself, study, read, discover your talents, practice a sport, speak
up, have goals, looking for campaigns that seek to promote women’s empowerment,
and never feel alone. You, the person reading these, and many others: we are strong, women like us do not need feet
because we have wings to fly.
Regardless of your condition, problem, age, nationality, cultivate yourself, study, read, discover your talents, practice a sport, speak up, have goals, looking for campaigns that seek to promote women’s empowerment, and never feel alone.
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